Sunday, February 5, 2012

Saturn, return

The sun is setting behind the Olympics and part of the sky is a bright orange, the other part a deep blue, with a midnight hue. I had been lying down researching places to visit in Savannah when I happened to peak outside and marvel at the view. What a lucky (is it luck?) woman I am. I say it often, it's hard not to be grateful for all that I have, all that I am. .

At work today, at REI, I think it hit me: I think I'm going through my Saturn Return. I feel a lot of change on the horizon. Heck, a lot of change has already taken place. With a heavy heart, I write that I am no longer dating the beautiful woman I mentioned in my last post - - or was it two posts ago? I miss her a great deal but am pretty confident with my decision. A woman will come a long, at some point, who has everything I need and can't wait to give to me. Until then, I'm working hard on myself - - in every sense. I signed up for a Creative Writing class at Seattle Central Community College. The description inquired, "Have you ever thought of writing a short story or novel? Do you wish you wrote with more expression and imagination?" Immediately I pressed the 'Register now' button. It starts this Saturday and I very much look forward to branching out and experiencing newness. .

I gave my two weeks notice at REI this afternoon. What a wonderful feeling, with a twist of sadness. I'm onto bigger and better things, trying hard to live this life of mine right. Mostly, I think I'll be working more at the Brave Horse to supply with me with more money to see this crazy world. Speaking of which, I bought a ticket to Charleston, South Carolina last night. My Dad and I are going on a father/daughter trip to the South this September. We'll hit up Charleston, the Carolina coast and spend a few days in Savannah. The amount of BBQ I'm planning to eat terrifies me. I hope to hear more of my Dad's stories, too. I treasure them with my whole heart. .

Mariana and I still have plans to visit Montana in May and I have tentative plans to visit Peru in the next year as well. Why? Why not. .

We are beautiful.
We are full.
We have the power to be happy.

I love love, especially when someone does it to me.

I feel empowered by this time of change. It's scary and I'm vulnerable, but I'm excited as well. By the prospects and so much more . .